rest - less

maybe i am rest-less. but its been 4 tiring days dealing with school work and group work and site visits and long drives. Im not complaining.. i just have been feeling restless.

Chris has been speaking on overflow and as much as that is what i want, i've been fighting a bit with distractions and aggitations and generally, rest-less-ness and uncertainty?

car over heating. thats fine....unexpected and a bit scary for the first time facing 'car trouble'. but i knew to keep calm and found myself deciding to believe that God has a reason for everything -> it took smone like khulbir to testify to a little miracle of asking god for help to come and straight away a kind old man in a van popped up and stopped to be of some assistance to us. meanwhile, i got the song 'Glorious' in the heads of both nuru and fran...who's a muslim and a catholic but they liked it. haha

school. classes, classmates, competition, competitiveness, the course itself, tons of questions and adaptations and analysis and reviews and books to read and essays to write. so help me god!!! i need to do this for You and not for man's approval.

distraction. cute guy in the class alert! hmm....he is charming. he's a bit like the rest of em aussie beer drinking blokes. but he's a bit different. maybe travelling around europe and asia (and a bit of the middle east) makes him different. he's just done his diving, has a middle eastern last name, has family in belgium, loves travelling... ok maybe i dont really know him. hah, sigh.

lucas and miranda. it was super catching up with em old friends. they couldnt help but to testify countless times of god's goodness and provision through their marraige to buying their own house and it sure was awesome.

i told bassie today that i think god hasnt given me a guy yet cos i simple havent loved god Himself enough yet. it sounded a bit ridiculous. but to me, that was possible just it.

god STILL was not first in my life yet?

i go on about 'god use me, use me!' but am i after the destination and not Him?

I want to know Him yet im not fasting and praying and hungering and thirsting for Him.........

ive just been r e s t l e s s and just that!

i cant let it go on! (and flora would be cheering me on on this one i know)

dreams are made of...

a shocking plot of escape; someone special, my loved ones; being romanced;
a happy ending and tears of joy; a painful process; a reward beyond what i could ever imagine.

taking what i love, going where i love with whom i love, doing what Love compells me to do;
soaring with You;
living a life in abundance and in overflow of all that we have knowing its all Yours anyway;
fixing my eyes on You alone and giving up these very dreams to You again cos i trust You know whats best for me still.

www.iaac.net - a plan either from You, or not.

How marvellous, how wonderful is my Saviour's love for me.

Christ for the Nations

No sweeter name than the name of Jesus,

no sweeter name hav i ever known,

no sweeter name than the name of Jesus.

You are the life to my heart and my soul

You are the light in the darkness around me,

You are the hope to the hopeless and broken

You are the ONLY truth and the way!

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While Pastor Merrilyn is on her 4 week break, she's put Chris to much charge, to charge US up to step up in OUR commitment to our spiritual growth. That includes commiting to morning and night services cos going for just either is only half the journey. and though it smtimes sounds a bit 'too much', i forget to put into perspective, over and over again, of really, what am i really about?

the free time i wanna have on my own to do 'nothing'? school work? needing 'me' time?

There has to be something more to life than just this. Something is stirring... i cant put my finger on it...God i need to heaarrrrrrr from You loudd and clear of what Your plan and call for me is!